Today, I'm supposed to leave the house to go and vote.
I won't be.
I cannot leave the house.
It's a relatively nice day outside.
Nothing to worry about (as my mother says).
Instead I've got fears over every person walking past the house. The dog is bring territorial and barking at them which is freaking me out.
Everyone keeps looking through the window directly at me.
Are they scoping me out to try and hurt me?
Are they casing the house to rob?
If I leave the house will they hurt me? They look like they might.
Its just gone 12pm and it's already looking like it's getting dark.
I can't stop scratching....I'm itchy all over.
Why am I freaking out over this?
My heart is going so fast....I'm concentrating on my breathing but I'm also freaking out because I feel dizzy.
If I pass out will someone rob the house and sexually assault me....I know that would happen.
Eurgh....mums just left me home alone....just to go to the corner shop. I can't deal with this anymore.
Stupid shakes....Stupid breathing....Stupid itchiness.
My head feels all tingly.
Is something wrong with me.?
Shall I see a doctor?
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